My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.
And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
So y’all can take your narcissistic
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.
- (via runiqu)
I have finally figured out the point of the Headline News Network. It hit me the other day in the lobby at work, where it aired in the background.
The channel has never made sense to me before now, except maybe as something to watch for under a minute in an elevator, and yet it has shows, hosts that talk and talk, recurring stories and themes, and in-depth discussion of a lot of stories that matter to just about no one.
Why? Why do they not just hit the important headlines in a continuous circle of brief updates, like its name suggests?
The answer, as is probably already evident to just about anyone else that has had the painful experience of sitting through a broadcast during their lunch break, is that HNN is extreme reality TV, the news as sport. While most televised media appears headed that way in their political coverage, they have gotten there first, and fully embraced it, by using human-interest stories.
Every day, the channel focuses intently on the trials of several carefully-chosen people. These people weren’t famous before their trials, the ruling will not impact your life, and the crimes—even the sensational ones—don’t have any bearing on anything you will ever do. They have a parade of reporters that invest a lot of time in discussing these people and their charges. They have Nancy Grace, who is dedicated to basically nothing else but these stories.
It’s like Survivor or the Biggest Loser, but without any investment in outcomes or safety, or any corporate concern for doing right by the participants. It is possibly the cheapest reality programming that can be produced.
Even better for building viewers, the consequences are often life and death, not just a new wardrobe or some cash prize that the network must provide. We’re talking long prison sentences (maybe even the death penalty if HNN is lucky) for the losers, public outrage and humiliation even for the winners, and notoriety for all involved.
Headline News is a low-budget Hunger Games, aired to amuse the safe and idle at the expense of the tragic. With the exception of some relatively bearable morning get-ready-for-work programming, the network subsists on drawn-out soap operas and all-out battles involving real people and private events, with consequences that may even result in death for the unwilling star.
That’s the network’s purpose, and it even explains the bizarre prime-time presence of Nancy Grace. While the network gives play-by-play announcing on the trials during the day, she builds the viewers’ emotional connection, and provides color commentary on the chosen courtroom sports almost every night.
Welcome to the dystopia.
- Neil deGrasse Tyson (via socio-logic)
Setting up a new network with some new equipment at home, and I think the most important step appears to be the first one:
1. Never use any software that comes with hardware accessories. Delete it immediately and/or never open the install disks.