My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.
And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
So y’all can take your narcissistic
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.
I have finally figured out the point of the Headline News Network. It hit me the other day in the lobby at work, where it aired in the background.
The channel has never made sense to me before now, except maybe as something to watch for under a minute in an elevator, and yet it has shows, hosts that talk and talk, recurring stories and themes, and in-depth discussion of a lot of stories that matter to just about no one.
Why? Why do they not just hit the important headlines in a continuous circle of brief updates, like its name suggests?
The answer, as is probably already evident to just about anyone else that has had the painful experience of sitting through a broadcast during their lunch break, is that HNN is extreme reality TV, the news as sport. While most televised media appears headed that way in their political coverage, they have gotten there first, and fully embraced it, by using human-interest stories.
Every day, the channel focuses intently on the trials of several carefully-chosen people. These people weren’t famous before their trials, the ruling will not impact your life, and the crimes—even the sensational ones—don’t have any bearing on anything you will ever do. They have a parade of reporters that invest a lot of time in discussing these people and their charges. They have Nancy Grace, who is dedicated to basically nothing else but these stories.
It’s like Survivor or the Biggest Loser, but without any investment in outcomes or safety, or any corporate concern for doing right by the participants. It is possibly the cheapest reality programming that can be produced.
Even better for building viewers, the consequences are often life and death, not just a new wardrobe or some cash prize that the network must provide. We’re talking long prison sentences (maybe even the death penalty if HNN is lucky) for the losers, public outrage and humiliation even for the winners, and notoriety for all involved.
Headline News is a low-budget Hunger Games, aired to amuse the safe and idle at the expense of the tragic. With the exception of some relatively bearable morning get-ready-for-work programming, the network subsists on drawn-out soap operas and all-out battles involving real people and private events, with consequences that may even result in death for the unwilling star.
That’s the network’s purpose, and it even explains the bizarre prime-time presence of Nancy Grace. While the network gives play-by-play announcing on the trials during the day, she builds the viewers’ emotional connection, and provides color commentary on the chosen courtroom sports almost every night.
“Is it political if I tell you that if we burn coal, you’re going to warm the atmosphere? Or is that a statement of fact that you’ve made political? It’s a scientific statement. The fact that there are elements of society that have made it political, that’s a whole other thing.”—Neil deGrasse Tyson (via socio-logic)
Mostly, if there was enough water on Earth to flood the world, the world would always be flooded. When the waters of the “Great Flood” receded, where exactly was it that they supposedly receded to?
Well, if they were taught like I was in Sunday School at a Southern Baptist Church, it may have had something to do with water receding to polar ice over centuries, but it didn’t matter how it happened, or even if it was a literal worldwide flood.
It was pretty obvious even to 6-year olds that two of every animal wouldn’t fit on any one boat, and we were taught Noah was real but there had to be more happening than he could have ever known. Otherwise it didn’t make sense. So we imagined.
As a little kid, I used to imagine many different Noahs all around a humid world, all with their own sets of animals, while mountain ranges and highlands were crowded with as-yet-unnamed species of fauna and flora. I pictured the ark landing on an island mountain like one of those, one left untouched by the water and still habitable.
It’s amazing to think how heretical all of that would sound to today’s fundamentalists, when it seemed perfectly normal to me back then. Perhaps it was only told that way to us kids, but the replacement of spiritualism with literalism is the main reason I can’t go back there.
“Without even acknowledging that it is doing so, the Roberts Five has overturned 40 years of policy and case law, under an earnest plea about the rights of the beleaguered donors who simply want to spend $3.6 million on every election cycle. But the opinion also offers up such a supremely cramped notion of “corruption” as to rely almost exclusively on the quid pro quo bribery favored in the Gilded Age, wherein robber barons casually left fat sacks of cash around in exchange for political influence.”—McCutcheon v. FEC campaign finance decision: Justice Roberts doesn’t believe in money’s power to corrupt, so there’s that. (via azspot)
Are you still talking about your special snowflake disease, and how you can't go for a walk because of "muh genetics"? Stop making these sad excuses. You're a 30 something year old boy living with his parents. Go enter the real world and lose some weight, and stop campaigning for an unrecognized and unreal "illness".
Actually, there is a special snowflake disease. Myasthenia gravis is called “snowflake disease” because it affects those afflicted so differently.
But I don’t have that.
If you are speaking of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, I will admit there is not a strong diagnostic test that can prove I have it. But, much like gravity, it can be proven to exist through observation.
You drop a pencil and it falls to the floor.
Doctors test my blood and find a retrovirus that is very common in people with CFS.
You go in one of those spinny things at the fair, you stick to the wall.
Doctors evaluate my symptoms, rule out all other possibilities, and diagnose me.
I am 32.
I do live with my parents. They are pretty neat.
I went to the real world last night! I even took pictures!
I am glad I did that, but right now I feel quite miserable. It’s very distressing, I’m in a lot of pain, I cried a bunch because the hangover fatigue was so intense, and I haven’t been able to move most of the day. Which is maybe why I don’t go to the real world all that often. FUN!
I lost about 20 pounds, but for some reason I can’t seem to lose anymore. My weight is an issue I have tried to address for a very long time. It’s hard for healthy folks to lose weight. Would logic not dictate it would be a great deal harder for people with debilitating fake illnesses?
Also, ~50% of my problem is narcolepsy. Which does have a definitive diagnostic test. The treatment is usually stimulants, but in my case the side effects were much worse than the benefits. So even if you think the CFS is a magical concoction of my brain… I have a whole ‘nother crappy disease that makes it totally legit for me to make excuses.
Though… it would be nice if you didn’t throw CFS under the bus like that. It affects millions of people and it sucks plenty on its own. Not just fat folks like me. Skinny people. Old people. Young people. It really doesn’t care. Yet there are a legion of doubtful blatherskites like you who seem intent on adding another layer of suck to this already sucky illness.
Every recognized medical institution says you are wrong.
The Republican members of the committee made it clear that not only do they lack the slightest interest in addressing climate change but they are about as ignorant about the nuances of science as a stone. Leading the charge was Texas congressman Randy Weber:
Several members, for example, appeared to be trying to mock rather than engage Holdren on climate change. “I may want to get your cellphone number, Dr. Holdren,” said Representative Randy Weber (R–TX), “because, if we go through another few cycles of global warming and cooling, I may need to ask you when I should buy my long coat on sale.”
Weber, a freshman from the Galveston area, began his interrogation by asking Holdren whether “when you guys do your research, you start with a scientific postulate or theory and work forward from that? Is that right?” Holdren gamely played along, explaining that “it depends on the type of science, but the notion of posing a hypothesis and then trying to determine whether it is right is one of the tried and true approaches in science, yes.”
But Weber’s question was really just a setup for his concluding statement. “I just don’t know how you all prove those theories going back 50 or 100,000 or even millions of years,” Weber said.
Perhaps Weber also wants to discount theories in astronomy, cosmology and paleontology? After all even those theories are based on evidence going back millions of years. I don’t know Weber’s views on evolution but I would be hardly surprised if he turns out to be in favor of “teaching the controversy”.
“I’ve made a lot of movies about self-deception over the years,” filmmaker Errol Morris said during a Q&A Wednesday evening, following an IFC screening of his new documentary The Unknown Known, “but nothing that comes close to this.”
the glorification of kurt cobain and demonization of courtney love is so discouraging but a reminder that if you’re a man and you’re an abrasive, provocative, drug-addled musician then you’re the voice of a generation but if you’re all of those things and a woman, you’re a junkie succubus
I think about this every time I see yet another disparaging article about her.